WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME.......?

This is a question that I have not been able to answer in all my 36 years. The question is WHY DO PEOPLE TREAT ME DIFFERENTLY? I've been searching for this answer ever since like Kindergarten when my teacher treated me differently from the other kids. I remember my mother dressing me differently from my sister and I always wondered why. I asked her one time and her answer was "because you're my baby". Well that wasn't good enough to a five-year old at the time. I also remember my grandmother calling me a "special child" and saying things like God has"special" plans for you. That didn't make me very happy because I had other siblings and cousins and she never told this to them. This"special"  treatment caused me to get in a lot of fights and other children hated me and was jealous. The crazy thing is I HATED BEING CALLED SPECIAL OR DIFFERENT!!!! It was definitely not something that I liked , encouraged, or invited. They just did it! I just wanted to live a normal adolescent and teenage life like all the other kids but even other kids and teens treated me differently by excluding me in certain games or conversations. I think that's how my introverted character became so deeply rooted.To make matters worse, on into adulthood,  college instructors would treat me differently from other students. Then after I got born again, pastors treated me differently and demanded that I do not try to be like other saints because God has a "special job" for me in the kingdom. This news was so depressing and the fact that people became jealous, distant and cold. Most folks think I have it altogether but they just don't realize that I'm a marked woman, chosen from my mother's womb and called to a destiny that I can't wiggle my way out of even if I wanted to. If all of these people who have come in contact with me at different times, stages, phases, and ages of my life are all seeing and saying the same thing, then it must be the work of the Lord. The downside is that whatever this "special" thing is, it sticks out like a sore thumb and people who I've never seen before can recognize it and they INSTANTLY treat me.......differently. The different treatment makes me feel hated and envied because of the rejection, eye-rolling, silent treatments, and sometimes people just stare at me like they're trying to figure me out. They need to stop wasting their time because I'm still trying to figure me out LOL!! I had gone into a place of business last month and the individual working the desk  just stared at me with a look I can't explain. I went back in there this month to conduct business again and the same person was working the front desk. It turned out, none of my information was keyed into the system probably because they were so deep in thought when  they should have been typing. I can't understand why some people stare at me and others go all out their way trying to avoid looking at me or speaking.  Only thing I can say is having a special calling does not make me any less human but the reason I lean so close and hard to the spiritual side is because I've never had a whole lot of affection, respect, and welcoming from people on the natural side. Maybe that's God's plan to keep me hedged in until I tap all the way into my destiny. Hopefully, by then what people think, say , or how they treat me won't be so noticeable or matter much at all. It's not about me, but it's all about Jesus!!!